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Last of the Pieces

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I was told by a fan that people actually do read the artist comments and that I should write more about my works when I post them up here. So here I go.

This is so much a personal piece. So much in fact, I will explain it to you. When I write up characters and draw them into existence, I make them out of a part of me. That way, they are easier to relate to and easier to write for. It helps keep a certain level of connection to how a character will be or would do for me. To be honest, I think Felix got the short end of the stick, as for my main characters. A lot of his experiences are more traumatic versions of events in my own life, and he takes them in a much harder way than I ever would.

The past three years of my life have been a vertical struggle with trying to cling to who I am and trying to keep people happy. I could not do both, so I failed at both. I was no longer me and those I sought to make happy were no longer. In fact, I began to drag people down with me and spit fire at those I cared about.
Eventually, the people I tried to make happy went away. I don't know if I was reluctant to let them go or if I was just so numb after my final downfall. But they left without a fight from me.

"All I have left is what you didn't take"

After months, scars appear over where wounds were. I apologized to those I hurt and that I cared about for what I had been. I thanked those who stood by me and tried to hold me together. I then took the advice of a friend I once had. She told me, "You're so deep! You should dive into yourself and see what you might find!"
and I replied, "If I dove in, I might drown."
That was then. I started hunting for the pieces of myself. And it's funny where the biggest ones were at.

This piece is about being whole and healing after you've fallen apart. It's also about self discovery. As time changes so do we, though sometimes it's only that we noticed something new about ourselves that makes us feel like we're different. What I've found out about myself as I gather my pieces is that I'm still very much the person I was when I was a Junior in high school.
I want what I want and there's no stopping me until I get it.
That I think life is a circle, so I'll keep coming back to the places I love. I'll keep seeking the things that make me feel fantastic. And I'll always laugh at myself for making silly mistakes.

For the character here... Felix's expression actually came from me listening to local radio. My local radio plays CRAPPY music for me to draw too. That's why he looks kind of bored.
What he's really thinking is, "should've known this is where one of the bigger pieces was."
I took the liberty of playing around with his design a bit. I think I found some things I want to keep!

BTW: kudos to those of you who know where he's supposed to be.

Drawn on crappy typing paper, inked in paint tool SAI with colours and effects from PS CS3

[Edit]
adjusted some shadows on the face that were annoying me.
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Completely ignoring the deep meaning behind the picture (I've been there and am there again, lol)
You have an akward of drawing furries. Still really good though ^^